“The kindness in me will sometimes leave, and this is the reason why some days I have to be alone.”— Juansen Dizon
i have so much i want to say but instead im gonna overthink every little change and every little thing and formulate how they all mean that you dont want me anymore and you dont care abt me anymore
(Source: sadgirljulie)
I wish I could stop obsessing
over the thoughts inside my head
of whether or not I’m good enough
or whether I’m better off dead
For what could be a person’s worth
if not in someone else
I cannot try to live a life
that is purely for myself
I just don’t see a point
in a life lived all alone
Never sharing happy times
never finding home
in someone who is everything
but to someone I am not
So I just pour another cup
but I still can’t drown these thoughts
I’m focused on my worth
but I’m still worthless and unfocused
I meander down this path I’m on
searching for a diagnosis
for this condition that I call my life
this never ending madness
the pain I feel inside and out
mirroring the sadness
The sadness of a life
that always seems just not quite right
of a man who wanders endlessly
through a cluttered mind’s eternal night
I find solace in my typing
or when I grab my pen and write
these words that help to sort it out
they are the only way I fight
